'Lucas , Lucas ... i think you'll be with me until i'm in the age of 27!! right ?=D ...'
*hugging her miniature maltese with full of hope and joyness*'Promise me Lucas! You will ! Ain't you??'
*giving her big innocent smile*i came across with this yesterday...
when i was trying to pay full attention on my notes....
but distracted by
Mandy's conversation with
Lucas...
technically...
Lucas promised
Mandy for her wish...

i remembered i told my daddy mummy this, when i was still depending on pampers for my big and small business...
'Daddy , Mummy ... i want daddy mummy sayang me forever har...*poo poo'ng *i don't want m@k m@k and gong gong...they don't want hold my hand =( ...'poo poo time ,
mummy and daddy will each hold my left and right hand ...
'emmmmmmmmm emmmmmmmmmmmmmm ' *from daddy mummy*this sound can be heard during i poo poo ...
then m@k m@k and gong gong will tease me ...
' So big d still need to be like this... ''Don't know MALU how to spell 'i hate them....
i hate them when they're so bias...
gave me the '
NEW' clothes as presents ...
but wasn't really
'NEW'...
they're just too big to be free size for my cousin sisters...
*which obviously showed that i'm BIGger*i hate them when i called them...
they don't give any response...
not even knock their head or look at me...
but they were so excited eventhough cousins sisters call them unwillingly...
i hate them when they collected their own clothes and left the others under the heavy rain...
and mummy need to HAND WASH again after back from work tiredly...
*got no washing machine that time *'mummy...y m@k m@k and gong gong never sayang me de nehx? '=(...
this repeating question wasn't that important for me anymore after some time....
when? forgotten...
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'gong gong...be strong ... =.( ....please wake up....'=(....
he was attacked by heart disease again....
emmited into ICU...
he went through 'by pass' surgery years ago...
he took various type of medications...
but i love him when he joke with me when he taking his medicines....
' i want eat Vitamins again LO... '
* a big smile appeared on his face *i can clearly see him in my mind now....
suddenly i felt that he wasn't that bad actually....
although he wasn't a really good father nor grandfather...
but at least he is a good husband and a great man..
mummy always cook for him...
he likes fish...
so fish is a must in every meal...
but he always take one slice from the fish ...
and left the 90% remained one for m@k m@k...
he wanted m@k m@k to eat more fish...
eventhough he want to eat it so badly...
but ended up ...
m@k m@k blamed that mummy wasted the money to buy fish...
*she then finished the fish all by herself * ==...
etc etc...
lot more stories ....
but let's just forget them...
gong gong left us years ago...
to a far far place....
m@k m@k turned into someone who don't like to 'CRAP' much ...
i don't hate them anymore...
but will start to appreciate the one who still be with us....
i appreciate everyone ...
related or not...
sayang me not...
doesnt matter anymore....
i will just appreciate everyone....
exspecially the one i love....
(^-^)...