Appreciate~*

'Lucas , Lucas ... i think you'll be with me until i'm in the age of 27!! right ?=D ...'

*hugging her miniature maltese with full of hope and joyness*

'Promise me Lucas! You will ! Ain't you??'

*giving her big innocent smile*

i came across with this yesterday...

when i was trying to pay full attention on my notes....

but distracted by Mandy's conversation with Lucas...

technically...

Lucas promised Mandy for her wish...



i remembered i told my daddy mummy this, when i was still depending on pampers for my big and small business...

'Daddy , Mummy ... i want daddy mummy sayang me forever har...
*poo poo'ng *

i don't want m@k m@k and gong gong...

they don't want hold my hand =( ...'

poo poo time ,

mummy and daddy will each hold my left and right hand ...

'emmmmmmmmm emmmmmmmmmmmmmm '
*from daddy mummy*

this sound can be heard during i poo poo ...

then m@k m@k and gong gong will tease me ...

' So big d still need to be like this... '

'Don't know MALU how to spell '

i hate them....

i hate them when they're so bias...

gave me the 'NEW' clothes as presents ...

but wasn't really 'NEW'...

they're just too big to be free size for my cousin sisters...

*which obviously showed that i'm BIGger*

i hate them when i called them...

they don't give any response...

not even knock their head or look at me...

but they were so excited eventhough cousins sisters call them unwillingly...

i hate them when they collected their own clothes and left the others under the heavy rain...

and mummy need to HAND WASH again after back from work tiredly...

*got no washing machine that time *

'mummy...y m@k m@k and gong gong never sayang me de nehx? '

=(...

this repeating question wasn't that important for me anymore after some time....

when? forgotten...



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'gong gong...be strong ... =.( ....please wake up....'

=(....

he was attacked by heart disease again....

emmited into ICU...

he went through 'by pass' surgery years ago...

he took various type of medications...

but i love him when he joke with me when he taking his medicines....

' i want eat Vitamins again LO... '

* a big smile appeared on his face *

i can clearly see him in my mind now....

suddenly i felt that he wasn't that bad actually....

although he wasn't a really good father nor grandfather...

but at least he is a good husband and a great man..

mummy always cook for him...

he likes fish...

so fish is a must in every meal...

but he always take one slice from the fish ...

and left the 90% remained one for m@k m@k...

he wanted m@k m@k to eat more fish...

eventhough he want to eat it so badly...

but ended up ...

m@k m@k blamed that mummy wasted the money to buy fish...

*she then finished the fish all by herself * ==...

etc etc...

lot more stories ....

but let's just forget them...

gong gong left us years ago...

to a far far place....

m@k m@k turned into someone who don't like to 'CRAP' much ...

i don't hate them anymore...

but will start to appreciate the one who still be with us....

i appreciate everyone ...

related or not...

sayang me not...

doesnt matter anymore....

i will just appreciate everyone....

exspecially the one i love....

(^-^)...